Bleak!

These days, there are three things I am extremely worried and tensed about.
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1. Nepal-China-India relations-- Repeated provocations and associated turmoil.

2. Sushant Singh rajput's Suicide

3. My failure to do certain things in my life.

Nepal-china-India relations and India's position:
I have always been against Imperialism and it's associated legacies. India like many other former colonies is a  free country now. But it's an irony that things that are creating turmoil in a free country is based on 'colonial lineages'. Be it Sagauli treaty between British India and Nepal or Aksai Chin region and Macmohan Line or for that matter India-Pakistan(again a colonial legacy) border disputre. All are products of Colonial rule. Thus, even without colonial chains we are in chains! This is not limited to India and its neighbouring countries but to every former colony. This really makes me frustrated!! 

Next in line is SUSHANT SINGH RAJPUT'S suicide:
When I was on Instagram ( left it 2 years ago) I used to follow only three celebrities: SRK, AB de Villiers and Sushant Singh. He was someone I admired because he has actually struggled to get what all things he got in his life. Be it 7th rank in AIEEE, DTU, a TV drama and then blockbusters. Struggle is the reason why I followed the other two too.
To know that he was under depression really breaks me. It's not that he cannot be under depression, three of my closest friends,too were under it and they are the strongest people I have ever met in my life. But the fact that he had no friends who could have taken him out makes me feel very sad! I know when we struggle in our lives, we face highs and lows. Both are shared by our friends. But I cannot generalise things as he was an introvert and I am exactly opposite to this. I have been watching his songs,interviews and movie scenes since the time I saw the news. My heart really aches! 
His loss feels so personal. So, From now onwards I have decided that I will try to help each and every body I feel is under some kind of depression, although I already do this, but I will pay greater attention to it now.!  Also I have decided to fulfill any one wish from his list of 5o wishes! Perhaps visiting LIGO it would be. Let's see! 
 

Third thing, I am going through is the frustration against myself.
I was told that a boy was threatening my maid's family to force their daughter into relationship. I just told helpline no. to my mom to which she could call. I didn't take up the responsibility to look into the matter myself. Now, my maid's daughter has eloped with that boy. She visited my house in tears. I am really sad that I didn't pay attention to it earlier. I could have personally talked to her daughter had I thought of consequences once. I didn't even go to file FIR in the police station fearing threat to my life. The girl has not returned till now. I am very sad because I didn't take actions on time. Now I have decided that whatever be the circumstances, if a helpless person comes to me, I would give him/her first priority and would never fail myself.



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